AND HE LEAVES!!!!!!!

sun is up,

birds have chirped,

flowers have bloomed,

streets still seemed in gloom.

World rushing around,

but seems as if it has stopped for me.

they honked

i startled

realized , was walking in the middle of the road,

was it just a honk or a slap to me

...to wake me up ,

was it ....

a bell of celebration for someone,

felt like whole world around,

is hopping and jumping

dancing and pumping

and i am at the center

seeing them but unobservant,

laughing with them and feeling nothing inside.

tried breaking through the circle around

some or the other GRAB hold of me

making me dance his own tune

i trying to get in flow,

as always...

....got stuck somewhere,

a step i couldn't understand, or

a step i wouldn't learn,

Or a step i don't want to learn and understand

m still trying,

but he realized...

...he is not with the right dancer,

and in flow he ...drifts off to other dancer

better...manageable and in flow....

there bodies go along...

a hand hand of mine still stretched....

but they are already dancing around me

and m standing alone in the middle again.

smashed but smiling....

scared of something....

if tried getting out again....

might get brushed up with someone again

whom i ll try dancing again on his tune???

this time i am not trying at all

trying to be still

seeing them enjoy...

with them....but not a part of them....

they jumping and pumping around

trying to keep a smile intact

so no one comes and try making me laugh....

and might leave to graveness again

after he leaves...

An Embrace made it All !!!!

You have no idea what it feels like when you are around

You have no idea what it feels like when the world goes upside down

The winds blow; The Mountains roar

The sea claps;

The flowers dance; the birds sing….

feels like the whole world has joined the celebration…..

Alas!!! …..Woh!!! Woh!!! Woh!!! ...... Why???

The feeling turns grave

Things around blur…….music slows

Feels like am moving…..

….Moving???? ....where????

Far… or close….

Excited…. or sacred ….

SCARED????.... Of What???

Far if it will go

My world will slow….

things blurring more….a thick drop trying to save it all….but

….a pat on the shoulder

And a trickle down the cheek

….clears the vision

A rap around the shoulder assures it right …..

..…m there ..…m there

…’ll be there…’ll be there

Voice says form behind

…...a beat skipped…

…..still scared but consoled…..an embrace made it all !!!!!!!

AREN'T U TIRED OF DOING THIS.....WHY?????

When i think that the life has started moving smoothly ......it again gives me jerk.....n then ask me are you crazy, m so not easy to handle......

all of it is shaking as though trees been shaken by reckless wind......

island again try to keep all it's trees intact n stay still........but its been you who's trying to pull them out by roots this time......

its asking you weren't the last times enough when "U" made burned it away.......when you washed it away......y this time you checking its roots on......

the last debris still not gone......they can never be........u keep unclothing them........

it was not long ago when the new seeds were being planted on.......scared that even they will be washed away.......i told them, not this time, i will not let her do this........happy they were n started growing .......the pod broke....stem came out.....followed by leaves......the tiny leaves were trying to grow......the bud was trying to bloom.......

GOSH YOU ARE BACK AGAIN!!!!

scared were they.......of loosing themselves......tried to go back in the pod......but there was no looking back......they curse me now of making them believe.......challenge to save them.......

why do I become so helpless when you are around........there's been no roads ever for me.........floating has always been the means........but this time you coming from all sides........daring to save myself.........

i shout out loud........challenge you back you try......by the time you reach me, my armies, strong & might will standing against you n will save themselves

the dear little seed, just came to the world, is assured that this time it will enjoy.......

Still i ask you:

Aren't you tired of doing this to me......why?????

HAD IT NOT BEEN A ........

its long way to go,
its high tide to come,
walking by beach
in the dazzling sun,
thinking if i would been
beside some one

holding his hand
i see myself walking,
sharing myself
without talking

his eyes full of respect,
that is what i expect

nearer the waves come,
tighter his grip become

my heart pounding in my hand,
as we laid back on the sand

he sees the whole world chattering around us,
still keeping me on focus

closer we come,
heavier my breath become

his hand drifted to my waist,
thought he was in haste

thinking if it was correct,
but couldn't react

later the world around me started to glow,
as his motion went in flow

by his calmness in passion,
he took me in his possession

feeling me drowning in him,
he saved my soul from touching the sin

sitting in moon,
thinking we might be apart soon
he hugs me tight,
and kept me away from fright

feeling myself in calm,
i laid my head in his arm

adjusted to make me comfortable,
i felt as if the moments were in fable

i opened my eyes,
and let the vapors rise
the dream was in fumes,
but he was there as heart assume
i can still smell his scent,
figuring what the DREAM meant....